I’m sure at some point somebody told me once that having children would change my life but, that really didn’t make sense to me until 9 years ago. Being a mom is no doubt the most incredible experience of my life. There are truly are no words that could ever describe it yet here I am trying. Think of the greatest feeling you’ve ever felt… now multiple that by 1ooo.
July 21, 2004 we welcomed my first born, baby boy, Gavin. Gavin was taken to a different hospital with some heart complications when he was two days old. That feeling of creating this precious new human and then watching as they carted him away from me to have surgery was a feeling I would never forget. Scared, hurt, nervous and exhausted were all feelings I remember. I loved him from the moment I met him and would give my life up for him. 9 years later that intense feeling hasn’t changed, it’s only grown. Gavin is one of the most sensitive little boys I have ever met. He worries constantly about others, if they are safe, if they are happy, if they need help. I remember being this way as a little girl as well. He’s a rule follower, he loves to understand how things work and function. He loves legos and his iPad. He completes me.
Fast forward to the same day just two years later. July 21, 2006 (yes, they have the same birthday). I prayed for months and months that God would give me not only a healthy baby, with no heart complications, but also prayed for a little girl (with lots of thick, blonde hair). He gave me something better. Amelia. I remember wondering if I’d be able to love someone as much as I loved Gavin, and was scared I wouldn’t be able to. I was scared that people wouldn’t pay enough attention to Gavin in the days after Amelia was born and his feelings would be hurt. Again, I was a mess of emotions yet I loved my pudgy, little, dark haired baby (who I remember resembled a sumo wrestler). She completed me. Amelia is the life of the party. She loves to make people laugh and that’s the exact reason I fell in love with her dad. She’s so much like him! She’s a self proclaimed vegetarian and I have no clue where she got that from. She doesn’t like chocolate… whose daughter is this anyway?! She loves to cuddle like no one else I know. She is laying on my back actually as I type this blog post. She’s the most beautiful person and I can’t believe I created her.
So while I’ve been a crazy paparazzi mom since day one, constantly taking pictures hoping to never forget a moment of their life or what they looked like, one thing I’ve lacked doing is writing about them. I want them to not only look back at pictures I took for memories but to also have written words to cherish. I wish I would have done this sooner but it’s never too late. I am going to try keeping a journal for them so they can read these words as they grow older. The have absolutely no idea how happy they make me. They are great, well-behaved kids who bring so much joy to our lives and I want them to know that. I want them to know that I am their biggest fan and that I will always be here cheering them on.
Am I really a mom to a 7 and 9 year old? It doesn’t seem possible. I do terribly miss their baby stages. The stages I quickly wished away because I was so excited to see what they’d learn next. However, this age is a lot of fun too. I see little grown ups inside them and find myself wondering what they are going to be like once they are older. Who will they be in this world and whose lives will they touch? They mean the world to me and I wish them the best birthday year thus far.
Happy Birthday Gavin and Amelia. Mommy loves you!
Bakery Photos taken at Cherbourg Bakery in Bexley, Ohio